Anxiety

Anxiety sucks. I had my first panic attack this evening, while shopping at Wal-Mart. I believe God was punishing me for entering the house of evil. It continued into the car on my way home. I began breathing heavily and felt like I was choking. It was a horrible feeling and I wish this stupid anxiety would just stop already.

Learning to be alone

It's been nine months now since my 5-year relationship ended. I can't believe it's been that long. I have learned so much about myself in these nine months. When it first ended I was in such a dark place, so depressed and feeling like my world would end. I had no job and he had my cat and I didn't like where I was living. Then slowly, I started to pick myself back up. I started working at Borders again and even started a business and found myself a home. And I am learning how to be alone and to enjoy life as a single person and do what I want to do, when I want to do it. There is something so beautiful and freeing in that. I'm proud of myself for what I've accomplished.

Oh baby